Bi Polar Believers?
It has been a 7 years since I found out I am Bipolar. My whole life has changed.
I have gone from having all these grand ideas and incredible lows to having a plain life. I call it "vanilla". Not in a bad sense but in a positive way. Everything is normal and happy. I used to never be happy because ever thing I tried to accomplish was just a touch out of reach. Let me give you a quick example.
I used start from scratch a new carpet store which prospered very well for 5 years until I tried starting a paint company and a second flooring store, while I was Pastoring a small church of 75 people of which I emptied out my Carpet warehouse and transformed into a sanctuary and quit the carpet store. I was Either depressed or psycho. ok that's bipolar.
But now my decisions are clearer and done by the grace of God and His mercy is grand. Yes taking my medicine and listening to a multitude of council, Is defiantly better than crazy ideas.
However I thought it was all God...now I know it was mostly me, some could have been the lord but I was so focused on trying to do things on my own that everything would fall apart. Thanks to God now that I take my medicine I can see clearer and stay focused through a decision. That's vanilla. Its taken a year of counseling and meds but praise the Lord all is well. i still get a touch of depression but defiantly not like before
June 26 2010 Ok So here we are a year later. I have moved to Kentucky from California. What a shock. Things are very slow but that's ok.
I have some things to share... you can be manic and not even know it.
We started another Church here in our gigantic house. There are about 20-30 people coming plus Kids. It's a blast. But lately my wife has been telling me I am manic. I couldn't notice it until she pointed out some things I said.
It's pretty sad when your out of control and you see it as normal.
We are praying for you all....
God Bless...
Pastor Dave
